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When Are You Due?

I have written this post in my head a thousand times. It brings up so much anger and self loathing that I finally wanted to get it on paper (digitally of course) so it can get out of my head. In 2019 I was in the best shape of my life. At 26 I wasContinue reading “When Are You Due?”

Hey Mama, I See You.

Hey mama, I see you. I see you doing your very best for your child. I see you trying to get through a shopping trip to get the things you need. I see you and your family member trying to diffuse the situation. I see you walking out of the store carrying your shoeless child.Continue reading “Hey Mama, I See You.”

“I love you”

It’s no secret that Jackson communicates differently than most. There are times when J and I will look at each other in pure defeat as Jackson repeats his words over and over. If we cannot figure out the word then we ask Jackson to “show me” and sometimes he is able to take us toContinue reading ““I love you””

Toddler Adventures

I have felt many emotions during my motherhood journey. The other day was the first time I have truly teared up for something that made my heart smile. If you know our journey then you know Jackson is in speech therapy and has a speech delay with receptive and expressive communication. This makes day toContinue reading “Toddler Adventures”

Madhouse Mornings

I hate weekday mornings. Even on the days that I go in late they suck. I wake up about an hour before the kids. The dogs get let out first and then I fix my cup of coffee, do my makeup, and get dressed. My goal is to do all of this BEFORE the kidsContinue reading “Madhouse Mornings”

One Month.

31 days. 744 hours. 44,640 minutes. May 16, 2022 somewhere around 1400ish I got the phone call. The call that would change our lives forever. Oddly enough, this is the second phone call I’ve received that would be so surreal that I almost felt like I was having a nightmare. If I could take thatContinue reading “One Month.”

2020 – The Year that Just Kept “Giving”

I’m not even sure where to start this or where we will end with this one. The past 2 years have been some of the most trying times I’ve ever gone through. Just last night hubby and I were saying how marriages normally don’t survive what we’ve been through. I won’t start at the veryContinue reading “2020 – The Year that Just Kept “Giving””

Fine. Nothing. Fine.

In our household when you don’t want to elaborate about your day you just say, “fine. nothing. fine.” And that’s code for, I’m fine, nothing happened, everything’s fine. We probably default to this too much and by we, I mean me. The truth is, I’m not fine. I’m barely even okay. I’m struggling daily andContinue reading “Fine. Nothing. Fine.”

Sick Babies & Scared Mamas

Today broke me. I am not proud of the way I handled things at all. Bubs has Croup and I have the crud. We were in the ER last night because despite my medical knowledge and training I am a complete freak when Jackson is sick. I panic and jump to the worst possible scenario.Continue reading “Sick Babies & Scared Mamas”

Slightly Medicated (and that’s OKAY).

Hello my name is Jessica and I have postpartum depression and anxiety (PPD/PPA). Phew, sometimes that is hard to admit. I kind of had a feeling this would be something that I face at some point. I have prior history with depression/anxiety and live with PTSD. I was medicated during college due to extreme stressContinue reading “Slightly Medicated (and that’s OKAY).”